One winter afternoon sometime in the early 90's, my then boss and only guru in journalism, John Dayal asked me to accompany him to a funeral. An uncle of his had passed away. As the congregation broke up after the funeral and we headed back to our car, John had his hand on my shoulder and said : "Rajan, when you are in your thirties and forties one of the worst things you have to come to terms with is the deaths of people you have grown up with."
I was all of twenty six then, full of life, and didn't quite grasp the full import of what the man was saying. Over the past decade and a half, many things that John ever told me have come true. At funerals, at cremation grounds, at mortuaries, as people whose presence in my life I had always taken for granted left, there have been many occasions -- far too many for my liking, if you ask me -- when John's words echoed in my ears.
As a journalist I have learnt to report deaths with a detachment I am not terribly proud of. Yet there have been moments in my personal life when I have been glad that I have had that training (that is, if you can ever be trained for such a thing), for it has helped me to cope.
Today, sitting in my writing den, as I randomly flipped through my diary of memories, a date looked back at me. September 29th. No, no one close to me died on this day. In fact, it happens to be my grandfather's (my dad's dad) birthday. One of the first losses in life I had to cope with was that of my grandfather's.
Had been around today, he would have been 107 years old. He was born in 1900, my grandmother used to tell me. She said it in a manner as if it somehow made him special. Born a century later, he could have been a millenium baby, and Barkha Dut would have possibly interviewed my great grandparents on NDTV.
A bit special he was though, say those who knew him. He was a towering figure not just physically -- he was close to six foot tall (every generation we have been losing four inches). He was a poet, he was a writer, he was a playwright, he was a journalist and from what I have heard from my Dad and my uncles he was a great cook (I am told, he cooked a mean mutton).
He spent more than five years in jail in three different stints during India's freedom struggle. He was a senior functionary of the Congress party when Bengal was still undivided and even included Assam in its fold. The Britishers charged just two journalists under the Sedition Act. One was Bal Gangadhar Tilak, who published Swaraj. And the other was my grandfather, Binod Bihari Chakraborty, who edited Janashakti. Oldtimers still talk about the tough line that Janashakti took against the British.
My first ten years of life coincided with his last ten. By then Partition, penury and Parkinson's Disease -- in that order -- had shrunk the once tall frame. His voice trembled when he spoke, his hands shook when he tried to hold something, he spoke slowly as if weighing his words carefully. But as I listened to him, even as an eight year old I realised I was on to a special thing.
He was the first, and until now one of the finest, storytellers I ever met. He told me stories of our native place, Sylhet. Of his childhood there, of the fresh air and plentiful fish in Surma river. He told me about books and food and politics. He told me about the time Gandhi and Nehru visited Sylhet. There was a twinkle in his eyes as he described Subhash Chandra Bose's visit to our native home in Sylhet. On other occasions, he would tell me stories of my father and my uncles, how precocious they were.
He rarely spoke about his life in Calcutta. But I remember, quite distinctly, 'Ami Boro Hobo' and 'Dakinir Chawr', two books that he mentioned and even bought for me. Speaking haltingly he told me how he had written the scripts for both the novels, but they were eventually published under the names of more famous authors. He never told me how that came about.
But even now I can sense the injustice he must have felt. He had written the scripts at a time when he was financially down. The books would have helped him and his family financially, but more than all that he had the look of a man who had been swindled. After all those years, the hurt was still there. And after all these years, it still bothers me.
One of these days, I would dearly love to sort out all his work and publish an anthalogy.
Great though my grandfather was-- as a storyteller and as a human being, he wasn't my first hero. That was my grandmother, my thakuma. As short as he was tall, she was every bit as tough as him and more. As a teenage sister to two brothers who were armed revolutionaries, my thakuma proved her toughness (and her loyalty to their cause) by spending a night alone in the local cremation ground.
"My brothers and their friends often hid their weapons at the cremation ground and me and a few other friends of mine were asked to look after the cache", she would tell me nonchalantly. I sat there, all of nine years old and wide-eyed, picturing my thakuma in the dead of the night , in a cremation ground, holding a revolver in her hand. I felt so excited as if I was the one who was holding the pistol.
After her marraige to my grandfather, she converted to the cause of Gandhi and non-violence. She took part in the non-co-operation movement against the British and was jailed for over six months. First in Sylhet, when my grandfather was incarcerated and then in post-partition Calcutta, she showed a lot of guts and held her nerve in very tough times to keep her flock of young children together.
If you ask me what is the most remarkably romantic thing I have ever seen in my life, it has to be my thakuma learning English in her later years so that she could read out loud the newspaper to my grandfather, whose failing eyesight deprived him of his biggest pleasure, reading. I remember going to school in the early seventies, as my grandparents sat on the verandah in the morning sun, my grandmother reading out stories of American B-52 bombers bombing Vietnam.
Those days there were fewer newspapers around, but somehow their worldview appeared far broader than what it is today. The front page of Hindustan Times often had the Vietnam War as the lead story. Happily, those were days when the importance of the story prevailed over its geographical location.
Those were some of the best years of my childhood, when my grandfather told me ghost stories and my grandmother made the yummiest most lipsmacking chholar daal with a dash of coconut. During those days had I been a journalist, I would not have had to be defensive, explaining to someone why the killing of a South Delhi couple was necessarily front page news, and the story of 15 people hacked to death by Ranbir Sena near Gaya deserved just three paragraphs on page 13.
I guess the world, and not just newspapers, was a lot less insular. And I was a nine year old without care in the world. I had not met John Dayal yet, and the loss that tormented me most was Jai's death in Sholaay.
I was all of twenty six then, full of life, and didn't quite grasp the full import of what the man was saying. Over the past decade and a half, many things that John ever told me have come true. At funerals, at cremation grounds, at mortuaries, as people whose presence in my life I had always taken for granted left, there have been many occasions -- far too many for my liking, if you ask me -- when John's words echoed in my ears.
As a journalist I have learnt to report deaths with a detachment I am not terribly proud of. Yet there have been moments in my personal life when I have been glad that I have had that training (that is, if you can ever be trained for such a thing), for it has helped me to cope.
Today, sitting in my writing den, as I randomly flipped through my diary of memories, a date looked back at me. September 29th. No, no one close to me died on this day. In fact, it happens to be my grandfather's (my dad's dad) birthday. One of the first losses in life I had to cope with was that of my grandfather's.
Had been around today, he would have been 107 years old. He was born in 1900, my grandmother used to tell me. She said it in a manner as if it somehow made him special. Born a century later, he could have been a millenium baby, and Barkha Dut would have possibly interviewed my great grandparents on NDTV.
A bit special he was though, say those who knew him. He was a towering figure not just physically -- he was close to six foot tall (every generation we have been losing four inches). He was a poet, he was a writer, he was a playwright, he was a journalist and from what I have heard from my Dad and my uncles he was a great cook (I am told, he cooked a mean mutton).
He spent more than five years in jail in three different stints during India's freedom struggle. He was a senior functionary of the Congress party when Bengal was still undivided and even included Assam in its fold. The Britishers charged just two journalists under the Sedition Act. One was Bal Gangadhar Tilak, who published Swaraj. And the other was my grandfather, Binod Bihari Chakraborty, who edited Janashakti. Oldtimers still talk about the tough line that Janashakti took against the British.
My first ten years of life coincided with his last ten. By then Partition, penury and Parkinson's Disease -- in that order -- had shrunk the once tall frame. His voice trembled when he spoke, his hands shook when he tried to hold something, he spoke slowly as if weighing his words carefully. But as I listened to him, even as an eight year old I realised I was on to a special thing.
He was the first, and until now one of the finest, storytellers I ever met. He told me stories of our native place, Sylhet. Of his childhood there, of the fresh air and plentiful fish in Surma river. He told me about books and food and politics. He told me about the time Gandhi and Nehru visited Sylhet. There was a twinkle in his eyes as he described Subhash Chandra Bose's visit to our native home in Sylhet. On other occasions, he would tell me stories of my father and my uncles, how precocious they were.
He rarely spoke about his life in Calcutta. But I remember, quite distinctly, 'Ami Boro Hobo' and 'Dakinir Chawr', two books that he mentioned and even bought for me. Speaking haltingly he told me how he had written the scripts for both the novels, but they were eventually published under the names of more famous authors. He never told me how that came about.
But even now I can sense the injustice he must have felt. He had written the scripts at a time when he was financially down. The books would have helped him and his family financially, but more than all that he had the look of a man who had been swindled. After all those years, the hurt was still there. And after all these years, it still bothers me.
One of these days, I would dearly love to sort out all his work and publish an anthalogy.
Great though my grandfather was-- as a storyteller and as a human being, he wasn't my first hero. That was my grandmother, my thakuma. As short as he was tall, she was every bit as tough as him and more. As a teenage sister to two brothers who were armed revolutionaries, my thakuma proved her toughness (and her loyalty to their cause) by spending a night alone in the local cremation ground.
"My brothers and their friends often hid their weapons at the cremation ground and me and a few other friends of mine were asked to look after the cache", she would tell me nonchalantly. I sat there, all of nine years old and wide-eyed, picturing my thakuma in the dead of the night , in a cremation ground, holding a revolver in her hand. I felt so excited as if I was the one who was holding the pistol.
After her marraige to my grandfather, she converted to the cause of Gandhi and non-violence. She took part in the non-co-operation movement against the British and was jailed for over six months. First in Sylhet, when my grandfather was incarcerated and then in post-partition Calcutta, she showed a lot of guts and held her nerve in very tough times to keep her flock of young children together.
If you ask me what is the most remarkably romantic thing I have ever seen in my life, it has to be my thakuma learning English in her later years so that she could read out loud the newspaper to my grandfather, whose failing eyesight deprived him of his biggest pleasure, reading. I remember going to school in the early seventies, as my grandparents sat on the verandah in the morning sun, my grandmother reading out stories of American B-52 bombers bombing Vietnam.
Those days there were fewer newspapers around, but somehow their worldview appeared far broader than what it is today. The front page of Hindustan Times often had the Vietnam War as the lead story. Happily, those were days when the importance of the story prevailed over its geographical location.
Those were some of the best years of my childhood, when my grandfather told me ghost stories and my grandmother made the yummiest most lipsmacking chholar daal with a dash of coconut. During those days had I been a journalist, I would not have had to be defensive, explaining to someone why the killing of a South Delhi couple was necessarily front page news, and the story of 15 people hacked to death by Ranbir Sena near Gaya deserved just three paragraphs on page 13.
I guess the world, and not just newspapers, was a lot less insular. And I was a nine year old without care in the world. I had not met John Dayal yet, and the loss that tormented me most was Jai's death in Sholaay.